”One day at a time” they say. Easier said than done, especially for a type-A, ultra organized control freak.
One Day At A Time
I hated that saying for a long time. Some days I still do. I mean, if you only go one day at a time, that seems pretty unorganized. If I’m busy only worrying about today, how can I be ready for tomorrow? Plus, it sounds sooooo cliche. (Insert eye roll.)
I always have a plan. Always. I know what I’m doing next week, next month, next year. And, of course, I’ve played every possible scenario in my head to go with every plan. So when I kept hearing that saying early in sobriety, it baffled me. It took me a long time to grasp what that actually means. For me, it means I have to let go of all expectations, regardless of the plans. And I have to stop focusing so much on the “plans” themselves. In sobriety, living one day at a time is critical to success. I have to remain sober for one day – today. Then I have to do the same thing tomorrow. And the day after that. And so on.
When I think of sobriety for a lifetime, it stinks. Actually, it sucks. Big time. It annoys me. I’m not sure why I even think that way. I enjoy being sober. I’m more productive, happier, clear headed. So why does it bother me so much? Probably because I over think it. It’s an oxymoron. I have to live one day at a time – forever.